I allow so much time to slip by. I question my intentions. Do I really want to do what I say I want? Or shall I say the things I want to be able to do. Things. Perhaps wanting too many…things is the problem. I have to admit; I lack motivation. What kind of creative person do I think I am if it’s so difficult to find it?. I allow too many distractions.
But I think my problem is grave. Procrastination is severe in my case. I never catch myself doing lazy things. Always things that open my mind. That I learn from. That seem productive. But they don’t move forward from that point A to point B where all the work is
Though it’s easy to blame my attention deficit disorder. And I know there must be accountability. My living with this deficit, takes my mind on a whirlwind of distractions discombobulated from a sane world. It’s like my senses are always absorbing everything around me. Unable to focus in on one thing.
A orgy of sensory stimulation….

Until I land on full hyper focus mode. Stimulating and Instant reward. But still unproductive.
Creativity is not a result from a knack of a natural flowing well of inspiration It’s something needs to be cultivated by diligently and deliberately coerced into existence.

The Summer is drawing to a close. This is a fast reply of some of the vacation and travel highlights of my 2016 summer. I’ve noticed I didn’t take too many selfies this year. I’ll try to make that up for the winter.

I ask myself am I being truly creative

I have this sense that I can’t find that element that thing that is as original as it can be.

I know there is no such thing genuine originality.  I’ve talked about that in the past.  Since creativity is finding ideas that already exist (they don’t come out of nowhere) and combining them to make something slightly new.  A new relationship.  A new idea.  Then why does that self-doubt creep up.

We say we want the freedom to express ourselves but are we self-awareness enough to know what it is we’re trying to express? Do we see too much of what’s out there and fixate on attempting something similar and not be more independent in our thoughts and creative process?  Perhaps it’s a lack of trust.  Confidence.  Self-criticism.  I don’t worry much about being creatively stuck.  Getting creative blocks is a natural part of the process

So Why do we create? Or why do we want to create. Are we compelled by passion?  Or If I’m asking these questions of myself is it because I’m lacking that passion?

I know I’m naturally enjoy the consumption of other creative works.   We are inspired and motivated to do the same if we believe we have the inclination to possibly reach that level of skill to some extent. . However, there is a point where too much consumption hinders your creative juices.  productivity.

Perhaps we do it because we are trying to discovere discovery something that we weren’t aware that we can produce.  We are searching within ourselves? Or to what extent are we being too influenced by others’ creations and ideas that we either identify or wish we had done similarly.

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We’re back!

After months of feeling creatively stagnant and feeling that time is marching on I started to feel that I was losing out in this game of life. But I needed something motivating. I found it from Gary Vaynerchuk. He’s a hugely inspirational motivational speaker and entrepreneur. He talks about not falling into the trap that to achieve you need to be very young. He has given me hope.

Check out Gary Vaynerchuck on Twitter at @GaryVee

Coney Island ends for the summer as my story with my long-time good friend ends.  Losing a close friend closes an important chapter in your life. But only you can keep it alive by never forgetting it.